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Longing ~Love In Particular! by Abeo Neco

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Title: Longing~Love In Particular By Abeo Neco Rating: PG Longing ~Love In Particular Life, well, love, in particular, is like a ballad. An... X Japan ballad, perhaps... Yes, that’s a good analogy. Love is like an X Japan ballad. And... well, the thing about ballads, and thus also the thing about love, is that... no matter how long the composer drags out the song, the tune, makes it linger, it must come to an end. But of course it does, I mean, everything ends, right? That’s just the way life goes. Ah, sorry... I’m getting a little off the subject. As I was saying, love is like an X Japan ballad, like Crucify My Love, Endless Rain, or Tears. Do you understand what I’m saying? Probably not. And, when I say that it is ‘like a ballad’, I don’t mean lyric wise, but music wise... composition. Let me explain. I’ll use... Longing ~Togireta Melody as my example, it seems a fitting song... and one of my favorites, as well - but you know that. So, here I go... The song starts off with a soft orchestrated composition, this represents two people as they first meet. Then... as Toshi’s vocals come in, the song gets its mood set, and this would be the impressions... the first impressions each persons receives of the other.... And as he sing ‘dakara, togireta melody, mune ni dakishimete....’ etc, the orchestra slowly crescendos to ‘anata ni aenakute mo’, and while this is going on the two people are now becoming friends, hanging out with each other... getting to know each other. This, of course, can take quite a while... although some people do tend to rush into things. You’ve always been one of those type of people, haven’t you? Well, then the chorus begins to play for the first time and you are realizing that you have some stronger feelings for that person than you originally thought.... And as the second ‘sing without you’ continues, you realize that this person that you’ve grown attached to has these feelings that you have for them in return... They like you back in the same way. This is then followed by the two of you now, knowing of your feelings for each other, acting slightly shy or bashful around each other... blushing, smiling sheepishly, the whole ten yard... Oh, this is all happening during the beginning of the instrumental follow up from the chorus. Now, partway through the chorus, oh, about two minutes, twenty seconds or so, the orchestra crescendos yet again, becoming very powerful, and now the two of you are hugging, cuddling with each other, and thinking, possibly planning, for a more intimate relationship. ‘I can’t face the thought of being alone...’ and continuing, coincides with your first experiments with each other... to see if this is really what you want. And... to see if things feel right. This could be any type of ‘experimentation’ from simple things like kissing, to.... And, once experimenting, realizing that this is something that the both of you want, possibly something that you need, are the feelings that correspond with the emotions felt as Toshi sings ‘mune ni dakishimete...’ all the way up to the chorus. Now, as the chorus begins again, you and your significant other are now acting on that love, may it be kissing, the show of public affection, nights alone together... whatever it happens to be that the two of you like to do. However, things don’t always go smoothly in a relationship... Hell, they never go smoothly! Eventually -taking place during the succeeding instrumental segment- something happens... anything: Jealousy, a fight for any number of reasons, etc. Things slow down for a bit in your affiliation. This could lead to more fighting, possibly the moving out of one of you two -if you were previously living together-, or a silent treatment even. Different people, different reactions. You were never one for quick move-outs, though. That was usually my place... even though it was my apartment... it’s kind of funny how that worked... Getting back to the ballad... ‘I still have a longing for your memory...’ etc... Times passes, you both end up missing each other and feel that strong pull of need and desire... you crave and yearn... like a junky aches for a hit of acid.. Eventually you come back together, usually followed by some sort of intimate moment as the orchestra comes in powerfully again accompanied by the beating of drums... And... the chorus comes in, yet again, and you take your relationship to the next level, of some sort... Life seems breathtaking, you feel that it will always be that way, that nothing will change... that nothing can change. The chorus repeats, and, if you hadn’t yet, you make love. Passionately, of course. ...The love seemed so strong between us, so incredibly strong... But then the vocals end, and only the orchestra is left.. the piano and drums playing along... the love lingers... but eventually the song fades, as does the love and affection... it just wilts and withers away.... into nothingness... Things change, Die. I’ve changed. You’ve changed. We’ve all changed; everything. And no matter how hard you try, things will continue to change... Love doesn’t last forever. Nothing lasts forever! I know I sound like a prick. I am a prick. I feel that I’ve done nothing but lead you on. But were you not also leading me on? Telling me that forever was authentic, telling me that our love was everlastingly, perpetual. It was nothing but lies - I knew that from the beginning. But I tried to fool myself, keep myself in the dark, dense of all truth; I did it because you wanted me to. You refused to believe logic, refused the hard truth until the end. This is the end. All I wish is to embrace you once more, to experience your soft, warm flesh against mine... To feel happiness just once more... But, alas, all I am doing now... is longing. -Kaoru

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