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| Just A Girl by Makoto Sagara |
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| *Disclaimers – I don't own Sailor Moon...much to my dismay. Sailor Moon is owned by DIC, Naoko, and others...But I DO own this fic.ALL MINE! So don't try to claim it as yours. And if u don't like my attitude, oh well* *This fic goes to the words and basic idea of "Just a Girl" by No Doubt. I find this song applies to my life as well as Mako-san's. (But, I am Mako-san, so.....) * Kino Makoto had had ENOUGH. She was sick of teachers, the law, fellow students, and most importantly, GUYS. She had tried so hard to be just what everyone wanted, but now she was going to do things HER way. I'm exposed And it's no big surprise It had started at her last school. She thought that if she was perfect, then she would have no problems. That wasn't the case though. People always found some flaw with her. She was too tall, too strong, too intimidating, too tomboyish. She was never right. When her parents died, she became too quiet. The kids at school weren't very sympathetic either. They just had another excuse to be mean to her. "You're so horrible that your own parents died to get away from you." One boy had said to her when she returned to school. This world is forcing me to hold your hand Then, she met Freddie.... Don't let me out of your sight I'm just a girl, all pretty and petite So don't let me have any rights He hadn't treated her like she was a freak, a tomboy, or a lesbian. He treated her like she was someone that he loved and respected. But, it was just an act. In his own way, he had tried to make Mako into his bitch. He started very slowly, at first. He would ask her to make him something, or to wear her hair a certain way, or to wear a certain dress. She did anything he asked, because she wanted to make him stay with her and make her feel better about herself. So many reasons For me to run and hide While she was with Freddie, Makoto had friends. She was demure and feminine. The guys weren't afraid to look at the pretty girl anymore. They hadn't been able to before. She would kick their asses if they got to close. Now, they had free range. The girls noticed the change as well, and decided that she was ok to talk to... I hold so dear Cause it's all those little things That I fear She hated the act. Mako was a loud, tomboyish, creature. This was not her. But, she was not about to go back to the way she was before. She liked having friends. She liked that guys would talk to her. She liked being with other people. She hated being alone. I'd rather not be Cause they won't let me drive late at night Her foster parents weren't much better. They gave her a very short leash. She had rules for everything. She had chores, a curfew, a bedtime. They treated her as if she was three, not fourteen. Take a good look at me Just your typical prototype Oh..I've had it up to here. Finally, she convinced DHS that she had an aunt and uncle, who just happened to live in Tokyo, who wanted to take her in. She actually tapped into her trust fund and gotten her own apartment. Funny how people don't ask many questions when you wave money in their faces, even if she being still checked up on by DHS. Freddie thought that he could really take advantage of her then. He forced her to have sex with him. She cried the whole time, realizing she wasn't happy. She was being totally opposite to who she was really. I'm just a girl in the world... That's all that you'll let me be She also realized that she wasn't happy at school. The guys still talked to her but the girls went back to hating her. She just couldn't understand why. One moment she had lots of friends, and the next, only the guys wanted to be her friends. Your rule of thumb Make me worry some Her teachers weren't any nicer, though. In fact, as soon as she got situated at her "aunt's" house, they kept a sharper eye on her. They were waiting for her to blow. What I've succumbed to is making me numb Mako was sick with herself. She had changed everything about herself for Freddie. She was utterly disgusted. For some guy, she had become quiet and demure, and she had let anyone say whatever they wanted to her. She felt even worse then when everyone hated her. What I've become is so burdensome I'm just a girl, lucky me Twiddle dum there's no comparison She decided she couldn't live with herself like this. She took everything that Freddie had liked, and she burned them. She then went shopping and bought things that she liked. Freddie dumped her shortly after. She didn't take it well at all. She was in love with him, even if he was a jerk. She cried for three straight weeks. The, she just stopped, but she didn't take anyone's crap after that. Three days after Mako stopped crying spontaneously, some baka decided to that she was still vulnerable and easy to use. She, on the other hand, was fed up with the male of the species at that moment. When he approached her, she immediately put up her defenses. The dumb baka wouldn't take no for an answer though. She got expelled from school for shoving the guy into a wall so hard they had to pry him out. *If you have any comments about this fic, please email them to me. Comments, suggestions, and death threats are welcome. Whatever you decide. All will be read. Thank you. * |
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